We have talked about this idea of the “mother heart of God”, the passion with which we pray and where it comes from and not allowing it to cross over into the sin of anxiety and worry.  Now let’s look at another woman just like us from a long time ago.

There are seasons in a woman’s life when the intensity to have children can be almost unbearable.  When I read 1 Samuel, I see such a desperate woman in Hannah.  “In  bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the Lord.” (1 Sam. 1:10).  “And she made a vow, saying, ‘O Lord Almighty, if you will only look upon your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life . . .” (1 Sam. 1:11).

The Lord did give her a son and she named him Samuel saying, “Because I asked the Lord for him.“  After the boy was weaned she took him and dedicated him to God.  He was given to Eli the priest to live and serve in the temple always.

How was she able to do this?  Can you imagine yourself taking your child at the age of 3 or 4 and leaving him with an old man, who hadn’t proved to be such a good father to his own sons?  A person that you didn’t know all that well living in a big and drafty old temple. To live there with him and serve God all of his life. This was her only son whom she had wept and prayed for.  How could she know if God would give her more children?  She didn’t at the time.  Her devotion to God and her integrity of a promise given and a promise kept was strong in her.  But how?  God had a plan from the beginning.  She could not have known the mighty man of God her Samuel would become.

Hannah had determined from the beginning and was committed to the dedication of her son to the Lord.  She had made her mind up from the start that she would let him go.  Part of this was coming from her immense gratitude toward God for answering her prayers and from the importance of a vow kept, a promise given.

When we dedicate our children to the Lord in front of the congregation when they are babies, are we not doing the same thing?  Are we not promising God that we will be a good steward of the child He has given us?  That we will teach him/her the ways of the Lord. To fear, praise and honor Him.  To live for and serve Him all the days of their lives.  We do this ceremoniously and symbolically.  But do we do it from our hearts with the passion and dedication that Hannah did?  Or, for that matter, the way Jesus did for us?  Part of honoring our vow to God not only has to do with teaching and training, but has to do with giving them up, letting them go into the hands of God to fulfill the plan He has for their lives.  It requires a sacrifice. It requires our trusting God to know what’s best for our children, no matter what it looks like with our eyes.  After all, does He not know them better than we do?  Didn’t He form them in our wombs?  Every atom, molecule and cell, knitted together in the secret place.

I believe the Lord gave me this word as much for myself as for anyone else.  It’s okay to have this passion and concern for your loved ones. There have been times when I have beat myself up, and the enemy has too, for the anquish and passion I have had for my children to walk with God.  For the incessant and devoted prayers, the praying without ceasing, the weeping, the holding God to His promises - but I now know that I am simply a reflection of my Father.  In the midst of all this fervent praying He has and is giving me, and will give you , the grace to let go.